Saturday, March 31, 2007

What I Found in Jack's Children's Treasury of
Wallace Steven Poems


Six Significant Landscapes



I


An old man sits


In the shadow of a pine tree


In China.


He sees larkspur,


Blue and white,


At the edge of the shadow,


Move in the wind.


His beard moves in the wind.


The pine tree moves in the wind.


Thus water flows


Over weeds.





II


The night is of the colour


Of a woman's arm:


Night, the female,


Obscure,


Fragrant and supple,


Conceals herself.


A pool shines,


Like a bracelet


Shaken in a dance.





III


I measure myself


Against a tall tree.


I find that I am much taller,


For I reach right up to the sun,


With my eye;


And I reach to the shore of the sea


With my ear.


Nevertheless, I dislike


The way ants crawl


In and out of my shadow.





IV


When my dream was near the moon,


The white folds of its gown


Filled with yellow light.


The soles of its feet


Grew red.


Its hair filled


With certain blue crystallizations


From stars,


Not far off.





V


Not all the knives of the lamp-posts,


Nor the chisels of the long streets,


Nor the mallets of the domes


And high towers,


Can carve


What one star can carve,


Shining through the grape-leaves.





VI


Rationalists, wearing square hats,


Think, in square rooms,


Looking at the floor,


Looking at the ceiling.


They confine themselves


To right-angled triangles.


If they tried rhomboids,


Cones, waving lines, ellipses --


As, for example, the ellipse of the half-moon --


Rationalists would wear sombreros.





Wallace Stevens


Sunday, March 25, 2007

Today I Want Purple and White Statis on the Mantle

A beautiful Sunday morning and kids have actually spent all weekend at their father's as his parents are up and can watch them as he cuts slabs of meat at Stop and Shop. Yesterday I cleaned the computer room and gave Lady a bath and hair cut before going to visit my friend Velmar for her birthday. Today so far I have saged the house, talked to my sister, taken out the garbage, walked the dog, put in laundry and had a free online tarot reading. Oh, and IMd LiaLia. And it is only 10:40! Feeling rejuvenated and happy with a whole weekend to myself.

On Thursday night, broke as usual, I asked the universe for some help. On Friday at work I got a check for three decision reversals. Just 60 bucks, but enough to get us through till end of week. When we write an argument against a judge's decision to not give social security benefits to someone and the adjudication council grants a new hearing, we get an incentive payment. It's only 20 bucks for a remand, but I got three last month and so the Tenerelli-Precht family survives another week. And the crowd goes wild!

We have some new writers on staff. One guy got sat between Tasha and I. He's a weird dude but nice. Outside at lunch he told me he likes to blow things up in the desert. I thought "Of course you do, and that's why you sit next to me." I am a bizzaro magnet.

I am listening to classical music and heating a blueberry toaster strudel. Later I am going for a walk with Lia. Life is good. Breathe in , breathe out, one thing at a time.

Little Match Box

by
Tess Gallagher

And if there were two moons,

who would sleep when one
passed before the other
and took it in
on its dark side? Wouldn't
some extra light ray out
around the sustaining one?
Wouldn't you sense
the two in one, even if you'd
never seen them parted?
Sometimes a glory

is just that—a guessing-into the seen, noticing the fringe of presence
when it comes, trying to match
its fervency by something
as tangible, something only you are equal to.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Spring Clown

March 17, and a winter wonderland outside my door. Birds are singing outside too. It is very strange. I am supposed to drive to Brooklyn today but the roads need to be de-iced some first. Maybe later this afternoon. Nobody is sick today, a truly momentous occasion. I have to do hideous chores like clean the bathroom. And take the sled and huskies to Stop and Shop. I hear Paula Cole singing, "Where is my happy ending? Where have all the cowboys gone?" I'd change cowboys to maids though. I am foggy brained and dull this morning. Perhaps I need more coffee...or tropical breezes. Landlord just came and collected late rent at back door. Oddly, it is always nice to see him which shouldn't be the case with landlords wanting late rent. He is a very sweet (and cute) guy. Yes Weezer, I can hear you yelling "slum lord" and "bad judgement." I just said he was cute.

A little Madness in the Spring

A little Madness in the Spring
Is wholesome even for the King,
But God be with the Clown --
Who ponders this tremendous scene --
This whole Experiment of Green --
As if it were his own!

Emily Dickinson

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Hello World

Nice to be back. The nasty, airless, dark place has receded once again and here I am in the light. Home from work with two sick kids and job hunting like crazy. As God as my witness, I'll leave Binder and Binder by Summer! Am reading Creative Visualization book left over from 80's new age craze; am visualizing fists full of dollars. Applied for a job teaching poetry at a technical college in New Jersey. Imagine getting paid to teach poetry...the mind boggles! Applied for many other jobs too, writing, editing, researching. Being home with two kids with stomach viruses has its advantages. I am appealing to the Universe (and any and all of my readers) to send a nicely paid job my way. On the poetry front, I have two features in May and a poem coming up in an anthology of mother poets. I may have mentioned that in last post. Oh well, let's just say it bears repeating! Details will appear here as time draws nearer. Am off to watch The World According to Ginger with the sick babes. And with Lady who assumes we are a dog pack that must lay on top of one another.

Acquainted With the Night

by Robert Frost

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain --and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height
One luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.

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